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[20 Mar 2005|10:50pm] |
bubblitoes
add it
no more kimmycanskank
k thanks
<3
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[14 Mar 2005|09:10pm] |
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take one glance into my life lately...
( sprinkling star dust upon a blackened night )
everything is coming together. little by little im beginning to understand so much more about myself and its really benefiting who im turning out to be. its not what people say to me, but how they act around me that makes me realize who i am. at times it can be comforting but in other times, its depressing. i know who im bound to hang out with and i know which relationships are trivial.
i was baptized and confirmed into the church yesterday and scott dudley answered so many of my questions yesterday during our last confirmation time. the best description he gave all night was of heaven. he described it like this "heaven will be a big city with everyone and everything you could ever want. rock shows, restuarants... and God. a face to face relationship, one on one, where he will answer all of your questions. it will be the new earth, with everyone you love. it wont be a place where everyone will be dancing on clouds and playing harps. you will only have to play harp if you like to play harp. otherwise, you can play the trumpet, or the guitar..." i cant wait. yes my questions about my life after i leave this earth will still dewindle in my mind, but in all reality, i dont need them answered. if i know and accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, i know i will live my life with God. i can wait for my questions to be answered. I have eternity after my time here.
My life here should be spent forming relationships with friends and family ...looking into nature...doing what im passionate about... live life. all my stresses are so trivial its ridiculous. i was sick today and i was so worried about all the stuff i was going to have to make up tomorrow. it will only be stressful if i make it so...
There are still some people that i know i dont talk to enough or anymore but that i really do cherish their friendship and them as a person. i really do want to still be your friend.. i wish you reciprocated this feeling. dont you see? i see God through your eyes... maybe you dont see him through me, but maybe thats why you need to take me to that place. take another chance... i promise you, i will try to make it a better friendship.
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there is no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard
and no song i can sing, but i can try for your heart
and our dreams, they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart
why are we here and where do we go
and how come it's so hard
its not always easy and sometimes live can be deceiving
ill tell you one thing
its always better when we're together
its always better when we're together
we'll look at the stars when we're together
its always better when we're together
its always better when we're together
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jack johnson sings about my life so much.
sigh... i really dont think i can keep it down anymore. why did i ignore it the first time?
oh my gosh i really dislike school. im getting sick. im lacking something.. i shake a lot more now.. its scary.
i am already so excited for the TAB show on march 18th. i heard them today, their new stuff..quality in the making...keep it up boys... you all make me genuinly happy.
i wish we were still friends.
i never update this morning becuase whenever i just write stuff no one comments, people only comment on picture posts.
iloveGodokthanks.
I get confirmed this sunday.
thanks God. you're way rad.
i try to spend as much time as possible with you.. please understand there is no line..its just your imagination. lets embrace what we have and make the best of it.
FOLLIES 2005- unforgettable .. ilovemylaffmachinepeople.
thursday- 7:30 at Newport.come. friday is sold out.
valerie, justin, tyler, christina, brian, allie, and gina are coming thursday
modest mouse @ the showbox tomorrow. sweet.
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[25 Feb 2005|12:31pm] |
ive got a golden ticket
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[17 Feb 2005|09:33pm] |
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eeep
i know everyone is mad at me becuz i still havent posted valentines pics.
bad... but i dont have time!! geeerrrr...
so heres whats up
um 1. i leave for cali tomorrow!!! :) i get to visit katy until monday.. totally rad.
2. i went to justin's twice this week
3. i hung out with brian on wednesday
4. chad gardner is my hero ...literally
5. valentines was sooo much fun..so much fun
6. i havent started packing
7. i havent started my homework
8. i love you
9. today dana leisy wrote me 2 letters and jon james wrote me one too <3333
10. i like life... most of the time.
i really want to take pictures .. a lot of pictures
of everyone..
so if u wanna model for me, come over.
keep scott merilatt in your prayers.
dont...get your plane ride on time..
okay call me when i'm in cali xoxox.
ill miss you for the 4 days im gone </3
ps. i need more music. k thanks bye.
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boys of TAB:
i miss you. can i seriously hang out with you guys.. i really need your wisdom, love, friendship, christianismin, amazing smiles, and amazing individually. you all have no idea what kind of impact you have placed on my life... you all will forever be in my heart. and when i say that you guys did a great job, i really mean it. this was by far my favorite show. keep up the amazing work. i see God shine through you every time i see you and thats probably the most amazing feeling ever. thankyou<3
( tea and crumpets )
technicolor girl.
<33
thanks for being my friend.
i love you.
when forever seems to take its time
and we're still standing here waiting in line
waiting for the sun to rise
she looks so confused her heart is lonely broken and bruised
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[02 Feb 2005|06:24pm] |
today i was sitting under a tree reading.
my shoes were off and my waterbottle was sitting next to me.
this two year old boy walks up to me and picks up my waterbottle and hands it to me and picks up my shoes and hands them to me as well.
then he walks in closer to me with his arms spread wide and gives me a huge hug.
it was basically the best thing that has happend to my in a very long time.
<3333
we live in a beautiful world, ya we do, ya we do.
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[31 Jan 2005|10:06pm] |
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AverageMelon: i suggest
AverageMelon: getting a leather bound journal
AverageMelon: and going to either starbux or
AverageMelon: a forest
AverageMelon: and writing
AverageMelon: and reading
AverageMelon: with God
AverageMelon: then it gives you undescribably confidence to do whatever you want
It's inevitable, i knew this would happen. by distracting myself with copious numbers of people, i have been able to avoid situations that were left up in the air. and then in doing this, i have further proceeded to leave behind the past and make believe it never existed, only crushing myself little by little. it's come to the point where i think about this situation more than i think about the happy things in my life. i think about what I'M going to do today or how I feel today when really "I" is my personal selfishness. i need to stop worrying, stop complaining, enjoy school and the oppertunities that lie ahead and the people i will meet. God is all that matters, i love him and i'll do what i want. Life is what you make of it, when in all reality, it won't matter in the end, because in the end, heaven will be eternal bliss. what a concept.
i thought i was smart, but school makes me feel extremely dumb. i'm never going to be the best in my class because i always have THE best in my classes. i will never live up to the standards laid out in front of me if i keep up that attitude.
when i was with brian and chad today, they were playing guitar and i was just laying on the dock staring up at the stars and brian asked me if i could be any star which one would i be. i said the one that was faint and was excluded from the other custer of stars... i dont know if thats the one i would really chose though.
im going to start taking polaroids of all my friends and tie yarn through them and hang it on the border of my room.. that'll make me happy.
ya finals are over, ya its a new semester but i'm still stressed because nothing stops, the fast pace just continues to hieghten.
OIFNSGOFINGSDLIFGNMLKDFSGMLKDFMGLID
i love music so much, that and God never stress me out.
live a little.
i need to do some major changing, bare with me
thanks for sticking around for awhile.
when i say lets hang out.. i dont know if you understand that i really mean it.
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[29 Jan 2005|12:47am] |
( bend and not break )
i dont really know. i dont have a lot of answers.
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[23 Jan 2005|11:32pm] |
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splendidemotions: who are you
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i dont know a lot of people anymore and they meant so much to me... please come back to me .. you were my shelter when it was pouring rain.
i am so overwhelmed.
which direction do i go in?
Today i cried in church and i came to a huge realization
i've left myself out of the picture
This time it's God and I
not God, You and I.
I miss your company... you know who u are... if you have one minute to spare, maybe send a thought my way.
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shiver.
ill always be waiting for you.
its been awhile
...i dont know if its really talent, i think i just get lucky.
( sparks )
carry me in your arms
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[11 Jan 2005|08:15pm] |
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haircut
werd.
<3 i love my friends
i love text messages<3
mmm kay...
i hope you guys like it. i think i do. *blushes* .. the back is the coolest part
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so this weekend was R.A.D.
i did a lot.
i met new people... that was mega rad and i got to see a lot of my best friends
today after school nicole and i sat in my car talking about life and it was probably one of the best conversations ever..
we reclined-- first time i ever have in my car... so comfortable, ur jealous.
nicole is one of my top best friends becuz we have a parrallel world in all aspects of our lives...
i need to be more conscious of myself i think...
i need to set reachable goals.
i want to change someones life by the end of this year.
i want....
sigh i dont even know anymore...
if you ever want to just sit in my car and talk, lets do it, for serious.
i want to be a better friend..
i wish we could have worked things out instead of ending it like this :x
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[06 Jan 2005|10:34pm] |
i havent updated a lot lately becuz ive been wanting to post my most recent sunset pictures but it turns out that im too lazy
im too lazy to post anything at all.
cheers
<3333
whycanttherejustbenosnowtomorrow
if you have ben gibbard ep's, talk to me
i'm only a woman of flesh and bone
...RILO KILEY ... your hawt
i cant wait till this weekend
do you ever get those days when like 1000 people call you and u hang out with 1000 people so your 1000 times happier. iguessthatmakessense
</3<3
people use the word emo to judge everyone thats sad *sorry if i do that, its annoying* so if people can say your so emo today then i could say well ya your so ... peppy why dont u go .... YEAH YOU HEARD ME.
i suck at comebacks
never again :X
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what an emotional last couple of days its been...
happy new years folks
heres some pics from new years with gina and allie.. what great girls.
( so this is the new year...and i feel mega different )
AH so many pictures... so theres my new years..obviously it was great.
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[31 Dec 2004|03:03pm] |
will someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that your deserting...for better company...
and the tears never cease to stop falling from my cheeks unto a unheld finger
its new years and im all alone...
</3
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yesterday i felt lucky
i drove to seattle for the 1st time by myself.. well i met up with my sister
then i ordered ben folds piano music and got coldplay on piano*quite simple* and elliot smith cds..<3333
then nicole of hawtness came over and got her first lesson in geetar.. rad. too bad a lesson from me doesnt make much sense.. oh well i know the bare minimum. and we took some glamour shots.. ya cool.
then i sat in front of spence's house with brandon for about half hour... and i saw spence.. it was the most amazing feeling seeing his face again... wow and seeing brandon again was MEGA rad.
hey hot stuff.
( uh o...: )
loveyou.
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goodmorning sun
goal: learn ben folds on piano
last night i hung out with chad and brian
it was fun, those boys are so cute.
goal 2: go to coal creek starbucks more
everybody was fired, everybody was oh oh oh oh
myitunesisretarded
christmas was rad.. its gone now :(
saw life aquatic last night... im kind of still contimplating it but i think the more i think about it the more i like it. hm.
should i grow out my hair but keep the bangs?
<3333333333333333
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